It is now March 29, 2011. Almost 4 months since we were married. And just under four months until our son, Koby Boyd, turns 2.
As I said in my first post, which I did write yesterday, I did not expect things to be easy being a mother, but at the same time, I did not expect them to be this hard.
After Koby was born I was diagnosed with post natal depression, though it is thought by both my husband and my mum that I was suffering from depression before Koby was born. I would say that it has made things a little difficult, but I'm not the only one who suffers from this, and I can struggle through. Most days are fantastic, but when I am having a bad day.. Boy, is it bad. I would not have it any other way, though.
Just a little over a month ago, my sister in law Kat and her partner Trev were married. Andrew, Koby and myself were all privileged enough to be a part of their bridal party. Such a beautiful wedding, I am sure I cried more at theirs than I did at my own.. Then again, I'm sure I drunk more at theirs than I did at my own.
Since then, when things went all topsy turvy routine wise for Koby, we have had little sleep, and even less time together. Though we both understand that this is not because we love each other any less, it can still make me quite sad at times.
Nothing much else has really happened. I started studying for my certificate 3 in children's services last week, and last night I won 2/3 of my darts games, though I did return home a little before 12 and feeling quite ill (not alcohol induced). That feeling has not gone away today, with only 5 hours sleep, I feel horrible. So Andrew has taken the day off from work to help me with Koby. I really don't know what I would do without him. He's truly the best. Might post again later today, depending on if anything exciting happens. If not, I'll post tomorrow x.
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